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Soul Weeds

So I’ve talked a little about the Soul and its levels. Now it's time to dig a little deeper into what can be blocking, slowing down or even completely stopping your Faith from working. In Matt. 15:13 Jesus states that God is going to pull up every plant that He didn't plant..."Plants" in this instance refers to beliefs in your Soul that God didn't plant.

Such as it is today, depression and anxiety are running rampant, and they are definitely blocking your ability to manifest God’s Promises for your life. When it comes to mental health issues - and remember the Mind is part of the first level of Soul- depression and anxiety are pervasive across all demographics.

Women over 40 are disproportionately impacted due to perimenopause, menopause, hormonal changes and a time of major life transitions. When I look back at my mental/ emotional breakdown, it was after the death of both of my parents; after I had been a caregiver for 14 years. It was a disorienting new time, and in addition to deep sadness I was in a place of deep disorientation. What do I do now? Where do I go? What do I do for work?

The impact of both of those losses created a downward spiral that I couldn’t seem to stop. It was at that time that Holy Spirit began to teach me about the distinction between grief and depression.

What I learned is that what I called depression was really a form of grief. While depression is an overall feeling of malaise; grief is an emotional response to loss. However, they manifest in very much the same way:

  • Persistent sadness or low mood

  • Loss of interest in activities once enjoyed

  • Changes in appetite or weight

  • Sleep disturbances

  • Fatigue or loss of energy

  • Feelings of worthlessness or excessive guilt

  • Difficulty concentrating

  • Thoughts of death or suicide

As Holy Spirit walked me out of the Valley of the shadow of death, He began to teach me how to ask myself why. How to begin to reject depression as my normal. How to get to the root of the pain I was feeling and let Him pull it out.

 As we discussed in an earlier post, the Soul has three levels, and can be compared to soil. And just like soil, it will grow seeds planted into it. As mentioned before, the

problem for most of is that seeds are planted unbeknownst to us that turn into beliefs, and become experiences we never consciously chose.

Makes me think about the parable of the wheat and the tares…

Matthew 13:24-27

24Another parable He put forth to them, saying: “The kingdom of heaven is like a man who sowed good seed in his field; 25but while men slept, his enemy came and sowed tares among the wheat and went his way. 26But when the grain had sprouted and produced a crop, then the tares also appeared. 27So the servants of the owner came and said to him, ‘Sir, did you not sow good seed in your field? How then does it have tares?’ 28He said to them, ‘An enemy has done this.’ 

In addition to grieving the loss of my parents, I started experiencing an amplification of the other weeds in my Soul. What I mean by that is ideas like "I'm not enough, I'm stupid, men are dogs, women are liars" and so forth. Again, as we’re growing up seed is being cast and sown into our Souls all the time. Some good, some not so good. Identifying those weeds was a big part of my healing process. What to keep, what to let go of, at the level of what I believed.

So as I started to deal with the depression beyond the grief, I could see that all of the bad feelings were by-products of

seed that the enemy had planted. Lies that I had accepted as true, had become beliefs and then negative experiences. My own Soul was being used against me! My God-given power was being used against me!

Looking back I see it's what was said to us, but also what wasn't said or done. As children we can begin to put life together the way we understand it based on that greater system of origin beyond our families: TV shows, comic books, games, movies, school, church, etc. Point being, as those erroneous seeds are planted and repeated and repeated, they become beliefs they have to be eliminated so that our Souls can become Good Ground and hold the seed of the Word of God unto fruition.

As you continue to move into walking by Faith, you'll need to know about this process so that you can work with God on what's happening within your Soul. 

Also as a side note, I highly recommend opening a file so that you can journal, or you can pick up a journal out in the market place. Journaling is one of the most enduring practices to get and stay in a place of clarity and relief. It’s helps me see and understand what’s really going on with me that I don’t share with anyone but God. Your journal will become a huge asset as you continue to grow, walk by Faith and become all that God has created you to become.


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